Hugs and cuddles were non-existent at home. Mom telling me how much she loved me would have been an absolute surprise, if it had happened even once.
So I grew up without loving, and never wanted to feel rejected by anyone ever again. I allowed them to fall in love with me, and I would choose to leave them before they left me.
I put up walls of protection around my heart, and refused to let anyone in. It was great to experience such self-control, nobody could hurt me, because to love was for the weak. I had serious trust and commitment issues. I strived at my career and gained much independence just to feel worthy.
But I was lonely and empty on the inside. I know there is someone out there that can relate to what I am saying.
There is hope, and it is found in Jesus Christ our Saviour. The only authentic love that we could ever possibly experience is the supernatural, transforming love of Jesus Christ.
We don’t need to live within the boundaries of our past pains, or let them define our future. Jesus Christ is our hope of Glory. I received the revelation of the love of Christ, and it opened me up to the multitude of possibilities life has to offer.
We don’t need to wait to die someday to experience Christ’s love for us. God wants us to have it now, here on earth.
Something happened inside of me. A shift, a change, a new way of seeing things and people.
Selfishness turned into generosity, lack of appreciation changed into gratitude, heartlessness into compassion, hate into love. Authentic, Christ-like love for humankind, and the kingdom of God.
We love because God first loved us. There is no expectation when we love each other with an authentic, Christ-like love. As the Heavenly Parent has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. (John 15:9 NIV)
If we want to come into the fullness, and wholeness, of who God created us to be, we need to remain in the love of Christ. That’s when we live a life free from the chain’s of fear, because where there is no fear, there is only rejoicing.
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. (Psalm 13:5 NIV) Jesus’ love never fails us.
When we need it the most, Christ is there with arms wide open to receive us, and to heal our brokenness. Trust in the unfailing love of Christ, and live life to the fullest.
Zahida Shaik Yusuf